When was the last time you cried? Was it recently, a week ago or maybe even every 20 minutes for the past 3 months?
These water works seems to be almost permanently in the “ON” position for me over the past year. It seems as though every time I turn around the emotions rise and here come the tears.
God only knows where they come from sometimes. I can cry over just about anything and nothing and have no idea why. It just happens. Sometimes without even a warning. One minute everything is just fine and then the next, WHAM!
Of course there are times when I CAN identify the source of the eruption. It can be because of the happiness, joy and pride that I feel. I’m very grateful to have made this far in life. I enjoy the beauty of nature and am astounded by it to the point where it moves me very deeply, so much so that there are no words to describe it…so like a human pressure cooker…..I let off a little steam…and cry. No harm done. Just let me get it out of my system and everything will be back to normal. It will pass. There are times when I celebrate the accomplishments and dreams of friends and family and I am so happy for them and proud of them. When I am around children they usually say or do something that is quite amusing and innocent and it can be so profound that it moves me to tears….of course then it triggers my thoughts of “How and when did life get so busy & complicated?” which sends me in the direction of different tears.
Life does seem complicated on occasion. It’s not just during menopause that we deal with challenges and struggles but they seem to be heightened at this time and we may feel vulnerable and overwhelmed by it all. When the brain and the body and life are all going in different directions that pressure builds up and yes, once again it’s time to cry lest I explode.
How have your emotions changed during midlife? Do you feel like a stark raving lunatic because your emotions seem to have you going in 14 different directions? Do you express/experience your emotional release by crying? Screaming? Some other way? I would like to know that I am not alone in this.
What other “E” words come to mind for you? Excitement? Eating? Extraordinary?